Don't know what's wrong with me
I doubt anyone will see this but on the off chance it does get spotted I just don't know what's wrong. I haven't changed up my practicing habits too much, so while I shouldn't be improving drastically I feel like I shouldn't be getting worse, but that's exactly what's happening. Over the past month and a half or so my gameplay has just gotten worse, and worse, and worse. It's driving me crazy, and I just feel like I can't hit a single shot. My decision making used to be really sound and fairly consistent, but now I always feel lost and confused in game. My aim while never the best was always pretty solid for the ranks I consistently sit in, and it was never overly frustrating to play the game like it is now. I just feel like I can't enjoy myself at all anymore because every single game I just miss every shot, run around like a headless chicken, and feed my enemies free kills cause I can't shoot back. I've been playing off and on since the beta and this is the worst I have EVER been. Even early on coming straight from csgo I was 100x better than I am now. Honestly I don't care about ranking up, I don't want to climb to radiant or go pro. I simply want to have fun in ranked and not feel completely useless to the teammates I do happen to get along the way. I don't like feeling like I ruin people's games by being as bad as I am right now.
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its 100% mental just take a break
if you dont even enjoy playing then dont it will make it worse
I agree, sounds alot like you would go into the gaming session already anxious, with self doubt and so on. "Tilt" or long term peformance anxiety like this, builds up and then any mistake feels bigger than it is.
Not to worry though, you are not alone with this challenge and for sure can overcome it, I believe in you!
A few tips for starting to regain confidence:
Pregame routine. Warmup, music whatever lights your fire!
Decide a goal for the gaming session for example as simple as crosshair placement or if your feeling social, communication. This help you build a mindset with the thought that there are no losses only winning and learning.
Review your games, sometimes with positive angle! What did I do good on this game? Which decisions were right and so on. This reminds you that you ARE good and confident, skill didnt dissappear just were hiding for a while.
Track and journal your ingame and mental performance.
You got this. đź’Ż đź’Ş
Watch some videos of other YouTubers playing , listening to music , chill out and if you lose 3-2 games in a row take brake and if you don’t think you will do good in comp don’t play comp for sometime play unraded and when you feel like you can do it hop on comp just don’t push too hard it’s a game and I mostly play games bcz I want to get out of the real world so chill don’t stress
And yeap, taking a bit time off for sure refreshes the mind ✅️
I guess it likely is a mental thing, too many losses for too long and fully blaming myself for every single one until it started becoming self fulfilling prophecy. Thanks for the advice guys :D
Anytime, and hey if you want to caht more my dms are open! Remember this: You are your best coach, critic, suppoorter and rival! Never take critcism from someone who you wouldn't take advice from âś…